Why is it that losing a pet is worse than losing a family member?  Of couse, this would be the first dog we have lost.  Oscar and Gertrude came to us within two years of each other.  Oscar did have more health issues than Gertrude, but Gertrude was the older dog, and I thought we would lose her first.  But it was Oscar who went.

I found him this morning outside our back door this morning.  He went out last night, and I saw him walk off in the yard.  I guess he never came back in last night.  For some reason, neither Hubby nor I noticed until I went to feed the dogs this morning and could only find Gertrude.  I found Oscar outside the back door.  He looked like he was sleeping, but when I touched him he was cold and stiff.  At least he looked peaceful.  I take some confort with that.

Now we have to explain all of this to Little Guy.  That was hard.  This is his first experience with death at all.  He is still in a very literal phase.  We went with the truth.  Oscar is dead.  We took his body to the vet, who will bring back his ashes.  We will spread his ashes in our yard.  Oscar is not coming back.  Everybody dies.  Mommy and Daddy and you are probably going to die, too.  But we are going to die a very very very long time from now.  Oscar’s spirit lives in our hearts.  

We are doing our best to answer his questions as they come up.

It is funny the things that hit you with grief.  I am having a hard time getting started on the kitchen because Oscar spent a lot of time scrounging for food in the kitchen. We can be more relaxed about leaving stuff out because Gertrude is not the scavenger that Oscar was. There will be more room on the couch without Oscar around.  We will miss Oscar’s grunts and snores.  We will miss Oscar stepping on our toes and cuddling up beside us.  He loved to try to get in our laps.

He left a big Great Dane sized hole in our hearts when he left.  

I know it will get better but it hurts right now.

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Blanche
    Apr 22, 2013 @ 19:20:46

    I am so sorry.


  2. Mrs.X
    Apr 23, 2013 @ 01:00:15

    It is terribly hard. So sad for you all.


  3. Kristin
    Apr 26, 2013 @ 16:10:17

    Aww, hugs! Goodness, pets have such a tremendous impact on our lives – even more than we realize until they are gone. They really are like a family member. From our experiences of talking about death with Emma, she kind of just accepts it and moves on. When a friend of ours child died, I thought it would be so hard on her, but she was pretty much like “oh, ok, Henry died. He’s in Heaven.” She hasn’t yet gotten to the point where there is fear and sadness associated with death.


  4. Geochick
    Apr 29, 2013 @ 18:52:50

    So sad. I’m sorry for your loss.


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